i walk through the door and the first thing to hit me is mike�s arms as he holds me as tightly as ever. i feel awful and so try not to have any impact and just stand there in shock. which to be honest is more of the truth than feeling guilty.

�i thought i�d lost you� mike gasps �i tried to run after you but you had gone�

�i�m sorry� i whisper

�I�m just glad you are back� and i�m sorry for being such a bastard to you�

�its alright� i say back

�thanks a lot steve. tell louise i said thanks a lot as well when you see her. i�m so glad you found her and brought her back safe and sound. i�d never forgiven myself if something had happened to her�

�try being her make-shift parents� laughs steve, �shall be off then. just be careful with her�

�will do� and thanks again� i owe you one!� mike calls after steve as he leaves in his car

�so what am i going to do with you then?� mike smiles as he gives me another hug

�i don�t know� be the next aidan?� i guess �but better�

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mikes record company had only one condition on breaking the contract, which was only fair seeing as how much they had putten into their lives. this record company treat their bands well. our band was on an independent label which basically means contacts through contacts.

the contract was to do with releasing a greatest hits album with a goodbye song on it, but also a song that says i�ll meet you on the other side. mike wrote the lyrics as he was the closest to wanting that. well they all are. they all want something from the other side of the fickle world of fame. now they are closer to finding their ways

�so what do you think� mike asks me as soon as he has perfected and re-wrote it, and the same again and again!

�i think its amazing� i say as i look at the words

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if you were me and i were you
would the world stay the same?
and would we still play the same insane game
that�s grown from inside
and hidden round the corners of the skies
they still go around and plaster the world

missing links and hidden phrases
turn insanity around to something people understand
they give the lower people the upper hand
they show those who know the wrong way to go
what i know is a hidden mass of contradictions
i�m lost in the words you say
give me a reason to say the right words
give me a reason to be forward in coming backwards

being a person that i�ve lost in another existence
is the outside temptress of a frame of an un-kept mind?
its better to skip the last song and rewind
drowning in the midst of what you know
where you are from
where you have been and the promises you lost
philosophically unravel the mysteries of life
but yet turn the hidden meaning
to a fantasy that will never belong to you

mix the fantasy with the reality
see people that you wish had long gone
sit and wonder why the songs sing themselves backwards
why the rain isn�t seen as a common problem

save it to the morning after

don�t you understand that the pain left with the rain?
the pain may have gone but the feeling still remains
the hate wakes with me, and the city of sin
the lost city in the back of your mind that i belong to
in the middle of the night that pain reprises
just sleep it off and you will find
that happiness only rises with the sun in the morning after