theres some things you just know... and getting glasses was definitly one of them! i did tell you didnt i!

this time they arent reading glasses. they are for going on the computer, watching television... just every thing apart from sleeping and lying in the bath as well. doesnt really bother me as thats all i do anyway so i might as well just have them for everything.

ive never had a problem with having glasses. maybe i would have when i was at secondary school as id been used to being called a freak anyway because of the epielepsy i have. one more different thing wouldnt have hurt!

school kids can be so hurtful but it makes you a better person. then again it can give you a lot of scars for future life.

im a bit of both really. sometimes i can be confident but really on the inside im crying my heart out.

theres a lot of things that are making me cry my heart out at the moment and im glad no one can see them because its all out of my hands. its just the way my world is.

you can find solitude in things such as music, writing and just plain basic escapism. god knows what i would do without them. its like waiting for a train that never comes and so you imagine what life would be like on that train. the good places. where your life would be headed...

linkin park have always been part of that life on a train. like the white stripes. everything that i can think of that makes me smile. then i look around and see that all the things in my train arent real in my life and its kind of depressing

maybe i just think too much... or i live in a fantasy world... or whatever it is its probably not good for me.

they say think positivly but when you think positivly you think of a world thats probably not possible to live in for you at that time. so whats the point in thinking positivly? everyone does things for themselves that are right for the time.

whether it be psychiatric help or running away from home. theres something inside of you that tells you and you just know its right. thats not thinking positivly, thats acting on instinct which is more of the right answer to life than thinking positivly.

im not giving an excuse for those that sit around doing nothing. im just saying that life is full of chances that appear now and then and you grab them when you find them.

when you are ready... doors open