well i finally got round to joining up with diaryland-gold so hopefully the banners will stop appearing now that im a 'gold' girl! but i doubt it!

being a gold girl is enjoyable fun as i get to search fansites / poster sites for really gorgeous pictures, start up diary-rings that no one joins and surveys that im addicted to. how much fun can one girl have on her own!! i mean theres jack white, john cusack, mike shinoda, daniel radcliffe, etc etc to trawl through. hard job but someones gotta do it! yes i know i have bad taste in the guys i fancy but i dont care!!

am also sat here listening to the amy studt album. i love her work, well maybe not the pop crap like 'misfit'. well its a good song but i dont like the way its marketed! theres a lot of crap out there at the moment and its not made out of pure talent. just pure money. bands like the white stripes are really bringing bank the good old days by starting over afresh.

i have to say the white stripes because ive been told im obsessed with them. i dont think i am. im obsessed with music more than anything. if i could put up with the idea of a spotlight on me and the thought of standing on a stage in front of squillions of people then yes maybe i could be a front person but thats not me.

i used to sing in the church choir as a soprano and once got put up to do the christmas solo and i really hated it. standing up in the bell-tower in front of thousands of pairs of eyes and me being very paranoid that they were all waiting for something to go wrong. theres a tape of me singing christmas songs that year that you can only ever find choirs doing. i got asked to audition again for the choir a few weeks back but i dont think i will as i like doing what i do

i write and im proud of it. well i guess you might have guessed from this story, 'questions, morals and answers', that im playing around with that threads itself through this diary.

id love to be a proper writer. not in the j.k. rowling style of things. god that would be as bad as being in a band. i have issues with fame and how it treats people! its a reoccuring theme in my stories!

poetry's another big thing as well. the name of my diary, 'psycho times of a merry-go-round', is named after a poem i wrote last october. think it was then anyway.

god ive been writing this entry for ages.