i cant believe whats happened the last couple of days. its kinda made me think that there actually is another lil spot of happiness round another corner.

what happened was this...

i thought id email random xboyfs to c how they were doing with their lives coz it can be quite interesting just to know how life is for people that have walked in and out of your life sometime or other. so i emailled greg, sneakily saying that i had a problem with my computer knowing how much he knows about computers and how little i know! the truth is i had no problem and didnt even expect to hear from him.

i got this that evening...
hi there!
i am so touched you thought of me... even if it is only because you've got a problem! i saw you a month or so ago in town and thought you looked great, and happy too. i tried sending an email to your old hotmail and uni accounts but i guessed you probably weren't checking them. so how have you been? i heard a few things through flick ages ago but otherwise nothing.
i never thought i'd say it but i have actually missed you. we had some good conversations and you realise how much that matters when you don't have it any more.
i am working now which isn't a lot of fun, with computers which you could probably guess.
of course i will help you if i can, just let me know what the problem is. i'd love to hear from you anyway.
speak soon,
greg.

so we met up last night and it was really great seeing him again. he was always the xboyf that i got on the most with and enjoyed his company the most.

i guess since then ive always tried to find someone to match him but when you set yourself standards you inevitably never match them because no one ever meets them because you are always looking for flaws. with greg i dont do that. i just end up enjoying every moment because hes the closest ive had to any of my x's being my best friend at the time of going out with them.

gregs the type of guy that when i once split up with him, i did so when we went out for a meal and then he still. insisted on paying for the meal. i guess that was the then transistion of us being together and being friends. he's always treated me with respect and the deceny that any single human being deserves.

in return i respect him for everything that he is because he's as individual as i am. definitly a one of a kind character. the things he comes out with are so amazing you find yourself thinking about them for days after and wonder how anyone can have missed out on a whole deceade of music! dont ask, but it has to do with living in majorca.

im now glad i sent that email out because ive found yet another reason to smile again... and that cant be a bad thing :)