music: dido - see the sun

well of course dido had to win best british female and the white stripes most def had to win best international group at the brit awards last night... and in a way i felt dead proud!

just recently i feel very proud of the british music scene. keep toying with the idea of buying the sex pistols album 'never mind the bollocks'. ive noticed similarities between myself and part-time member sid vicious who died 25years ago his year minus certain qualities.

its always good to find someone to relate to as you feel like you arent alone in the way you think and feel as well as live your life.

im living my life in a very scared way at the moment. i thought i knew what it was like to live independantly but obviously i dont as im now finding out. having a social worker and going through the council, all for a house, was not what i wanted or expected... not even knowing that i have priority because i have a mental illness.

my life just feels like a car on a very very steep hill... it doesnt stop and doesnt know where it will end up. story of my life all the way through i guess but it only now im really beginning to realise it and it scares the hell out of me.

lts just hope i can pause for breath... just for a second...