was back at work yesterday. do miss the old place when im not there and now i wouk in a coffee shop in sainsburys and i love it. went back yesterday as my 3week holiday was over and went back to find out that everything had changed. was quite freaky! thank god i hadnt got to wash everything up by hand though. i hate that!

maggie and steve are playing a trick on me... i think. you see maggie said that steve was dating her daughter but her daughters married. the funny thing is no one else knew about it.

i shut them all up when i turned round and said i had a boyfriend. greg is a friend whose a boy, but not someone im dating.

i kinda like steve as he is really nice. but i know when steve is hiding something as he tips his head down. the lower it goes the more annoyed he is and this time he couldnt be staring at the floor anymore even if he tried.

steve's not ready for a relationship and neither am i. his girlfriend left him for a life in australia without telling him. it broke his heart and backed him away from quite a lot of things. women mainly.

he is a complete sweetheart though but you have to make the effort to talk to him rather than the other way round. when you do get him out of his shell he can be quite funny.

thankfully it was pretty quiet yesterday. especially the after 5 meals. we have a buy-one-get-one-free offer on certain after 5 meals but no one ever comes in and so we stand around gossiping and complaining about the way things are being run.

marthas our new manager and i do get on with her as a person, but as a manager there are some things that she does taht i dont particularly agree with.

if i was manager i would have sat down with my staff and talked things through with them to find out what works and what doesnt. it also gets you respect from your staff that you are on their level rather than anyone else's. i mean in our coffee shop we all do everything. washing up included. no ones any better than anyone else.

same with life.

i get on well with sue and lara who i was closing with. lara left an hour before hand. shes a very strange girl who loves her only-child attention but doesnt really understand non-only-child attention. she can be very hypocritical at times.

lara was the first to disagree and fall out with marthas way of running things but now feels sorry for her for the way we talk about her, but is one of the worst to do it.

i adore sue as i get on well with her. i respect her way of doing things. shes doing a course on psychology that one day id love to do. sue can be a bit odd but shes odd in a way thats really brightening your day up.

we all have a laugh as it keeps our sanity intact.

todays my day off so i went to the doctors this morning to have my deprovera injection done. this contraceptive injection lasts 3months and stops your periods (thank god!!!) and hopefully will help my epielepsy.

a few months back i was in the royal free hospital in london and they found out my clusters of fits are starting to come around the time of my period so stopping them is the obvious choice. it took them a week to find this out despite the fact id already said this and worked it out.

i hate neurologists who think they know it all when they dont and its different for every person with epielepsy. they dont have to live with it and work out bodily links like the epileptic has to.